The past 3 weeks i have been rushing for my application into Singapore Bible College. I'd secured a place with Trinity Theological College, but cancelled it because of some personal reasons. I 'd submitted my application minus a completed medical report and birth certificate. So i did my medical report and asked my family to send my birth cert over to me last week. A few days later I was told that there are traced of blood in my urine...
I didn't know how to respond when i heard that. There wasn't any anxiety nor negative thoughts and emotions. I felt that that's life. Somehow i've prepared myself for it subconsciously. I dont know, really. But given such reaction, there must be some reasons that i'm not conscious of.
Anyway, i was told to go through another more thorough check-up, which i did, on Saturday. I went through it reactionless.
I got hold of the result this afternoon. Everything is fine. There is no red-blood cell in my urine. After submitting everything to SBC, i went away happy and satisfied. Felt like as though i have finished some kind of task. Just a few minutes later, the registrar office called me and told me that my application is being rejected because the lecturer who is supposed to review my application is not around and my application was way passed the deadline. Again, i was reactionless. I told the caller, "OK, thank you". Somehow it seems like i was prepared for such news.
Half a minute later, i called up the registrar office to ask for an email indicating that my application is rejected, so that i have a copy to send to Rev. Burke, my senior pastor.
Dont know whether is it due to my Calvinism. I didn't feel bad. Part of me actually rejoice over this rejection while other part felt like crying. But the crying mechanism just didn't work. No tears.
"The sovereign God is over looking this entire process", whispered the Calvin in me.
Anyway, i had just send my appeal to the dean of SBC. If Calvin is right, whether my appeal is approved or rejected later, all things work for the good of those of love God. Opps.. i mean Paul.
Updates (17 May 2007): On hindsight, i feel disappointed. Anyway, Dr. Chong, dean of SBC, informed me that my appeal is not possible due to immigration regulation. Very kind of him.