Wednesday, August 30, 2006

30th August 2006

I came into my office early today. Didn't had good sleep last night. Was at the worldview class and thought that i just wasted my two hours there. Not because the teacher is shallow and uninteresting but because i can't relate with the class. The teacher is Rev. David Burke, the senior minister of ORPC. He's smart and helped me along in my pilgrimage. Just recently he told me to look up for the Hebrew word 'dabar' because i told him about my attempt in understanding John 1.1. As i look into it, i found another illumination.

Met someone that i've never met today. We talked......nope, it's he talked to me on certain theological issues ranging from worship to health to John 1.1. Throughout that two hours, i seldom speak. I was enjoying listening while keep nodding my head to acknowledge not his points but his shallowness. I've to admit that i met people in my trade who talk as if they are Socrates. But in reality and in my sight, they dont know what they are really saying. For eg. this person told me that there is a book which he thinks does not belong to the Charismatic. Upon hearing, i raised my brows wondering why suddenly he talked as if i am anti-Charismatic. He told me the reason why he thinks the book is not Charismatic because the author quoted from KJV. *sigh*

After that i met another person who introduced Peter Wagner's book to his friend. I dont know both of them but was in the same location as them. One of them saying something like this:

"Ohh... is it (the book) about not using our mind in our faith? If that is what it means, then it's a good book..."


I read somewhere that Betrand Russell think so fast that before his debaters finish presenting their arguments, he already figure out how to counter them. Sometimes i do feel like that. It's not a proud assertion but more of a lamentation for the anti-intellectual climax in this world. And thus i always stay quiet whenever someone talked. Either i am contemplating what the person really means or, if not, i am sighing inwardly. Thought of correcting them but i seriously dont think their already shallow minds able to process in such a short while. Lot of time, patience, determination, and money involved. Hence, I can only concerntrate on those who are willing, not those who are willing to act as if they really are.

Lamentable world. Pit-depth world. Filled with asses, fallen and shitty. It needs toilet papers to clean them.

Wanton Cruelty

“My Loki was not merely malicious. He was against Odin because Odin had created a world though Loki had clearly warned him that this was a wanton cruelty. Why should creatures have the burden of existence forced on them without their consent? The main contrast in my play was between the sad wisdom of Loki and the brutal orthodoxy of Thor. Odin was partly sympathetic; he could at least see what Loki meant and there had been old friendship between those two before cosmic politics forced them apart. Thor was the real villain, Thor with his hammer and his threats, who was always egging Odin on against Loki and always complaining that Loki did not sufficiently respect the major gods; to which Loki replied

I pay respect to wisdom not to strength.

Thor was, in fact, the symbol of the Bloods; though I see that more clearly now than I did at the time. Loki was a projection of myself; he voiced that sense of priggish superiority whereby I was, unfortunately, beginning to compensate myself for my unhappiness.

The other feature in Loki Bound which may be worth commenting on is the pessimism. I was at this time living, like so many Atheists or Antitheists, in a whirl of contradictions. I maintained that God did not exist. I was also very angry with God for not existing. I was equally angry with Him for creating a world.” (C.S Lewis, Surprised by Joy)


When existence came into place, 'free will' followed. We as the fallen-sin-marred creatures have, first, existence forced unto us, second, free-will. And with these two coerced burdens in our being, we have to 'live for God's perfect infinite glory and serve in his unfailing flawless kingdom to establish that PERFECT realm on this pit-depth world'. If not, when the landlord comes back to his vineyard, he will send us to hell.

Thus the Bible is right when it alludes that the condition of human is in deep shit. Being forced into existence with free will and bearing not only the burden to glorify God but also his very image. Talking about toilet-paper's job. But toilet papers still fare better because it doesnt have free will, not like us. They're manufactured for the sole purpose of cleaning our asses without the liberty of compliance. Some toilet papers even have their creator's stamp on them so that they might give glory to the manufacturer when consumers find them job well done.

Monday, August 28, 2006

25 August 06 - 27 August 06

Went to watched Lucky Number Slevin on Friday night. It's a good movie. It has strong casts: Bruce Willis, Josh Harnett, Morgan Freeman, Ben Kingsley, and Lucy Liu. Willis played a cold-blooded-assassin role (ala The Jackal). Besides admiring Harnett's height, beautiful face and body, Willis' coolness, Liu's adorable character, and the charisma of both Freeman and Kingsley, the plot was great.

On Saturday evening, watched Adam's Apple. It's Dannish. About a group of people who had their lives changed in a church. There is a priest, the priest's son, a terrorist, an ex-national tennis player, a criminal, and a woman who impregnated with a defect feotus (fouetus?? fortues?? *watever*). The story centralized on the criminal's attempt in relating to the priest and thus the rest of the characters. The whole movie thrills you to wonder what's the message behind it, whether is there God or the devil that's intruding these people's lives. Ohh yea, the movie focus on the Book of Job. A great watch. It's a theological view on evil.

I left the cineplex with a smilling heart. Dont know why la.. sometimes this kind of show shines to us more than sessions upon sessions of bible studies.

After that met up with Joyce at Borders. Window shop with her for a while. Then came by Freakonomics. So i introduced that book to her. She picked it up and glanced through the review at the back of the book. Then she commented something about the 'ku ku klux...'. I was puzzled for a moment, then only came to me that she was refering to the ku klux clan. Immediately i LOL. Who on earth can be that funny?! "Ku Ku Klux"... hahahaha... ugly stuff such as the ku klux clan can be turned into comic only at her hands. i still laugh whenever think about it.

I enjoyed Sunday though didn't sleep well. Facilitated the my group. Wish i could do more for them.

Besides, that this weekend got me thinking through the interpretation of John 1.1. The more i think of it (and find out about it), the more i am convinced the best translation for 'logos' is Wisdom of YHWH. There is this Jason Loh, who follow Gordon Clark, interprete 'logos' as Logic (an official Clarkian stamp). But i differ with him. Why is that? Add Ben Witherington on the identity of Jesus as Wisdom of God with D.A Carson on the purpose of the gospel of John and N.T Wright on the interpretation of the synoptics; u will get the answer.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

KL Trip - August 2006

Was in KL last week for a few reasons. One of them was to attend Ravi Zacharias' dialogue with Dr. Syed Hussein. I expected it to be somewhat apologetical but was mistaken. Watched 2 movies there. Click and Nacho Libre. Both comedic but very different production. When i came back to Singapore, went to watch My Super Ex-Girlfriend. Needed that dose of comedy to get me going.

During my spent-time with Pui Yee, learnt something called 'agent of socialization' from her. It's the medium between culture and people. It's the 'where' of a cultural date being transmited to the observer. For eg. language is an 'agent' (correct me if i am wrong). Illuminating.

Leon Jackson has been graciously allowed me to stay at his place. Besides the hospitality, he blessed me with some of his studies, especially in the area of viewing ethic. Am grateful for such illumination.

Had lunch with Teresa on Monday. Was amazed by her Roman Catholic tradition of saying grace. We had a good conversation in regards of her view on economics and religion and philosophy. She champions the Free Trade market. Another illumination.

Tuesday's worldview class by Rev. Burke was none the less illuminating. We talked about a biblical view of vocation. After going through the eyes of seeing vocation through Creation, Fall and Redemption (ala Francis Schaeffer & Nancy Pearcey), i asked suspiciously "How broad can this paradigm being applied?" (with suspicion that this paradigm is not practical in today's world on ALL vocation). Then i asked "can a Christian works with Coca-Cola?" Rev. Burke said "why not?". I replied "because Coke is not a healthy drink. There isn't anything good in it. So, if a Christian knowing that it is a bad drink, can he still work with the company?"

These questions led me to think of other vocation such as prostitution. It seems like there is an unnecessary bias towards this vocation compared to others, such as Coca Cola, Gucci, Louis Vuitton, Merc-Benz etc. I still can't see the intrinsic difference between a prostitute and a Coca Cola marketer. Both fallen jobs, but why one to be accepted in this part of the world, while the other is not? Coca Cola is being accepted because of it's been socially accepted. Prostitution is not because it's not being accepted by our societies. But how about countries like New Zealand and Australia where prostitution is legal and socially acceptable?

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Sonnet 18

TT rejuvenates Shakespeare's Sonnet 18 in me.

Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer's lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimm'd;
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance or nature's changing course untrimm'd;
But thy eternal summer shall not fade
Nor lose possession of that fair thou owest;
Nor shall Death brag thou wander'st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou growest:
So long as men can breathe or eyes can see,
So long lives this and this gives life to thee.