Friday, February 25, 2005


I had a headache this morning when i woke up. My room was spinning until i finished my bath. I am drained in this week. Was attending a few meetings after work oftenly. Slept insufficiently after those meetings, and wake up to work again. Day in and day out. Tired...


Why am i not Superman? Isn't it good if i could move in the speed of light, defy gravity, and punch through walls? Why am i so NATURAL? I am so mortal and weak. My body is rotting from time to time. It can be seen at my face, pimples been poping in and out at all time. My body and face have never had smooth surfaces since i was 12.

I fall sick easilly these days. Since last year October, i have been sick once in every two months... *cough*cough*... see?

From young, i am anti-sweat. I can only play 2 types of sport; namely bowling and swimming, simply because both no need to sweat.

If i do a 2.4km, will probably end up with a breathing apparatus on my face. It is not because that i have asthma, but simply of my weak body.


I feel dead... I am sooooooooo mortal... I am perishable and am PERISHING.......
Will i end up in death? Can the sting of death weaken this (already) weak body?
Can dead be ressurected? How? Will the ressurected body be different with the dead???

'...God gives it a body as he has determined, and to each kind he gives its own body... There are also heavenly bodies and there are earthly bodies; but the splendor of the heavenly bodies is one kind, and the splendor of the earthly bodies is another... The body that is sown is perishable, it is raised imperishable; it is sown in dishonour, it is raised in glory; it is sown in weakness, it is raised in power; it is sown a natural body, it is raised a spiritual body... For the perishable will clothe itself with the imperishable, and the mortal with immortality... The sting of death is sin... but thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.' - 1 Cor 15:35-57

AND because of this ressurected body,'...always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labour in the Lord is not in vain' (1 Cor 15:58)

Tired? Yes

In vain? No

She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more

Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get insecure
It doesn't matter anymore

It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want

I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all

I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved

-'She will be loved' by Maroon 5

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Wednesday, February 23, 2005

My Boss

Today, i want to blog about my boss. He is my direct superior by the name of Tai Zi. I have been working with him since the 1st of July 2004 till now... almost 8 months... and I had never met someone like him before!

First of all, he is a cunnning and yet very humble person. He is very modest in everything but, at the same time, very firm on his stand. He has alot of patience and diligently taught me alot of things. I admire his humility and passion in his service.

Lately he shared with me about his path of concerntrating full time doing outreach through music teaching in a church and, at the same time, involve in some oversea missions.
Isnt that great? His passion for the kingdom and his humility in submitting himself to Christ is just wonderful.

ok, a little bit of his background... he was a rascal before he accepted Christ, he is older than me by approximately 10 years (i guess). He and his wife are blessed with 2 kids. He is sharp minded and innocence at the same time. There were few times when i was surprised by the way he talked to people. He could talk innocently honest to others, which makes them feel secure and comfortable to talk with him.

There are times when he shared with me about his temptations and weaknesses, and apparently those trials are not new to me. I can absolutely relate with him on those. But what opened my eyes is the way he handles these bad times. He looks weak but very very strong in his stand. While, vice versa, i look strong but kind of weak inside.

"Remember your leaders, who spoke the word of God to you. Consider the outcome of their way of life and imitate their faith." Heb 13:7

I cannot compare with him in every aspect of spirituality. If he, who is so much more experienced in the business, and yet humble than me; thus, what makes me think i ought to be more boastful than him? Suddenly i felt so proud. I felt so ignorant. I felt so despicable.

Is there anything really mine to boast about? Is my knowledge mine? Is my body mine? Is my money mine? Is my righteouness mine? ALL IS MINE is just because they were given to me freely... I owe it to the generousity of that Someone.

"But, “Let him who boasts boast in the Lord.” For it is not the one who commends himself who is approved, but the one whom the Lord commends." 2 Cor 10:17-18

The Lord is the true Boss.

Saturday, February 19, 2005


wow... time flies... so fast i am already back here in Singapore. Really tired of travelling. Been running around places to spend significant time is not an ideal for me anymore. It is so tiring in the body, mind and emotions. My whole has to be re-adjusted again and again to get myself blend into the place.... circumstantial....

Since i am back here in this new Lunar year, there are a lot of things need to be deal with. Some changes are inevitable. All are due to circumstances.

Anyway, i had a wonderful moment in penang on my last trip back home. It can be the best of all in these 3 years since i started working. Been meeting up with lots of long lost frens. Had lots of fun which a foreign land couldnt give. All dues to circumstances.

Miss all of them...
si beh sien...
This picture worths some peta bytes in the mind.... me and frens at 'the cafe'. Posted by Hello
This is me and Kathy at 'the cafe' Posted by Hello

Truth or DARE?

*oooOOOoooo* This is one of the penalty for losing 'Truth or Dare'....standing in that pose next to the big screen where many eyes are watching* Posted by Hello

Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Back to Cafe

Those who fly, already flew away; those who drive, already drove away.

Last night, Valentine's day, i went to Secret Recipe, the one at the back of Pacific, to have a slice of New York cheese cake. It was 11pm++, there were people in pair everywhere. I wondered why cant they follow xiaxue's suggestion to stay at home and do something else on V-day. HahaHahaaha... but at the same time, i enjoyed looking at the joy that they have. It was bliss in everyone that night.

And there i was in Secret Recipe, with my cheese cake and a copy of Motor Trader. I was busy browsing through for the price for a Mazda RX-8. It costs RM (Ringgit Malaysia) 220K++ for one. hmmm... The retail price for one in Singapore is around SGP (Singapore Dollar) 130K++, and when converted to RM, it is slightly expensive than here. In that case, most probably i will get one over here.

HaHaHaHaa... still early to dream... but, hey, whats wrong with dreaming?

After finishing my cheese cake, i get into my car, turned on the engine and laid back on the driver's seat while enjoying the new CD i bought earlier.

Half way through, i was thirsty, so i got out from my car and head right away to "the cafe". Though been there for a few times, but still dont get the name of the "cafe", so will called it as "the cafe" in the mean time.

On the table where me and my frens always occupied, I ordered a glass of ice lemon tea, and just sit there glaring onto the main road. Thinking of nothing, i was enjoying that moment of memories flashing through like little waves hitting the shore and left. It was a peaceful moment despite the background noises and musics. No wonder there is a chinese proverb that says "When the heart is at peace, naturally the body will be in peace."

Slept at 5am++. Was watching Enter the Phoenix before that.